Hey girls, really sorry I’ve been quiet on the blogging side of things this week. I’ve had one of those weeks...
Yesterday me and my boyfriend split up. I feel like I’ve lost my best friend, the person I shared everything about my life with and the person I felt completely comfortable with. Right now I can’t imagine how anyone else will ever be good enough or will share the same kind of connection as we had. Deep down I know it’s for the best and in the long run will make me happier but it’s going to take some time to get used to the whole thing. I knew it was coming and it wasn’t really a shock but to be honest right now that doesn’t make things any easier. I know I’m not the first person to feel like this and I’m sure a lot of you can empathise with me. I know times a healer so I just need to be patient.
On a positive note, I had an interview on Wednesday for a marketing internship which is what I studied at university. It’s only a temporary position but I’m giving up my permanent job to do it. ‘She must be mad’ I bet you are all thinking. But I think this is just something I need to do. I’ve been trying to get a job in marketing for over a year now and have failed. I feel that this experience is exactly what I need to help me get to where I want to be. I’m at a stage in my life where if I was unemployed for a while it wouldn’t be the end of the world. I live at home and have very few ‘essential’ outgoings. I’ve been finding it hard to fit job hunting around my current job anyway because it’s the last thing I feel like doing when I get home from work. The only bad thing is that it’s in the town where my now ex-boyfriend lives and a part of me just wants to be able to leave that part of my life behind.
So I handed in my notice at work on Friday, feels kind of strange if I’m being honest. I feel like everything’s going to change for me over the next couple of months and nothing is going to feel the same. I’m not sure how this makes me feel... a little uneasy I guess. I know I’ve just got to go for it though and make the most of everything that’s thrown my way.
Sorry if this was a really boring ramble and well done if you got to the end of it!
Hope you are all ok. Much love, Laura xxx